Victoria Beckham explains how she deals with her eating disorder

Victoria Beckham has revealed that she switched her focus from her weight to being 'healthy' as she explained how she dealt with her issues around food. 

During her Netflix documentary, the mother-of-four bravely revealed that she had battled an eating disorder since childhood, admitting she 'didn't like' how she looked in the mirror and began to control her weight in an 'incredibly unhealthy way'.

The docuseries started with a shot of Victoria, 51, effortlessly squatting 30kg in her home gym and she has now explained that when it came to her food issues she 'managed to turn it around into being healthy now'.

She explained: 'Being strong and knowing that's what I do every day to be able to work properly is so important.

'I do the Stairmaster for half an hour on my own before (personal trainer) Bobby Rich and David arrive.

'Then I do about an hour with them. It sets me up for the day. It's that discipline, it's what I do, and I like routine.'

Yet she added in an interview with The Sun that she was all about 'balance', insisting: 'To be clear, I also love a drink. David and I like to party.'

A topic at the heart of Victoria's Netflix show is how she struggled with her body image and food.

Speaking on the three-part series, Victoria said: 'I really started to doubt myself and not like myself and because I let it affect me, I didn't know what I saw when I looked in the mirror.

'Was I fat? Was I thin? I don't know, you lose all sense of reality. I was just very critical of myself. I didn't like what I saw. I have been everything from porky posh to skinny posh, I mean, it's been a lot and that's hard.

'I had no control over what was being written about me or the pictures that were being taken and I suppose I wanted to control that. I could control it with the clothing, I could control my weight. I was controlling my weight in an incredibly unhealthy way.

'When you have an eating disorder you become very good at lying. And I was never honest about it with my parents. 

'I never spoke about it publicly, it really affects you. When you're told constantly you're not good enough. And I suppose that's been with me my whole life.'

Victoria, who catapulted to fame in the mid-90s with the Spice Girls, also recalled a moment when she was weighed live on television by Chris Evans on his Channel 4 show TFI Friday to see if she had lost her baby weight just months after giving birth to her eldest son Brooklyn back in 1999.

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While at the time she was all smiles, she explained how it took its toll on her as a young mother.

'I was weighed on national television,' she said. '"Get on those scales, have you lost the weight?" We laugh about it and we joke about it but I was really, really young and that hurts.'

Victoria's body confidence agony began when she was just a teenager and won a place at the Laine Theatre school in Epsom, Surrey – which her parents funded by remortgaging their house in Goffs Oak, Hertfordshire.

She said despite her hard work she wasn't the best dancer, or indeed singer. But she also told how she looked different to her classmates.

'I didn't look like a lot of the other girls,' she recalled. 'That's where I started getting a lot of criticism about my appearance, my weight.

'I remember the principle of the theatre school saying to me, "you girls can be flown in", meaning that we weren't looking as aesthetically pleasing as some of the others, "so we'll just fly you in the back."'

Victoria's mother Jackie added that the star was told 'you're overweight. You'll be at the back.'

She continued: 'It must have affected her, it's a very silly thing to say to someone - "you're fat".'

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